The more time I spent attentive to the room I was in, the more I was reminded of where I was and what had happened, the more “I” came back.
These moments did tend to flip-flop and there remained periods of lucidity interspersed with those whereby I would lose consciousness and essentially undergo a reset, but Mum ensured she was by my side whenever I became responsive to ensure I was as comfortable as possible. I don’t remember ever feeling scared if Mum was there with me. I always felt safe. I always felt held. I always felt loved.
As my consciousness began to return for longer periods, the growing realisation that my independence had been completely stripped of me on top of the crushing knowledge of learning, again and again, that a close friend had died in an accident I had no recollection of living through, became more established.
I have written another article in which I talk about the accident in greater depth and cover what I regard to be the start of a profound, life-changing spiritual awakening here.
Whilst it is important to recognise and honour the rhythm of our minds and bodies in order to help us achieve a state of maximum performance, it is also fundamental to our potential that we see these as a solid base upon which we can improve. We absolutely do not have to accept our circumstances as they are and can choose to change our perspective at any moment. ..
We are free to make a decision—right now—that can completely alter the path of our lives.
We have the courage, we have the resources, we have the capability.
The condition you desire is already present—it has already happened—it is just waiting for your alignment.
To become one with these energies, we must relax into the present moment. We must sit through our discomforts and trust that what we want to happen has already happened.
We must learn to take charge of our emotions and operate from our goals rather than towards them.
Rather than phenomena to shy away from, diving in and learning about our emotions can provide us with an unparalleled sense of courage and mastery. Learning about how to manage our emotions can help simplify what it means to be alive and ensure that we are more confident approaching any unfamiliar situation. Self-education is important. Emotions are nothing more than signals.
Our emotions are there to serve us, not hinder us. In order to listen to what they are trying to say, we must stop engaging in the behaviours that are preventing us from feeling uncomfortable and gain freedom by studying our wounds.
Inhibitory emotions such as guilt, shame, or anxiety are usually a way of blocking access to wound-driven underlying emotions inevitably carrying an important message with them that, once learned, may enable more freedom.
Become curious with this knowledge and identify any action you regret, understand and have empathy about why it happened, recommit to the value that was violated, and move forwards in alignment with your ideal self.
When we navigate through the layers of programming accumulated throughout our life using only our breath as a guide, we become more aligned with our deeper selves.
In order to move forward from there to understand why it all happened as it did, begin working on how we will take these learnings forward with renewed alignment, it can help if we rest in the knowledge that we’re not defined by our histories, but what we chose to do with them.
“No experience is unbearable. No experience is overwhelming. What is unbearable is our resistance to experience. No experience has the capacity to make us miserable unless we resist it.” — Rupert Spira
It was late September when one of the most experienced consultant neurologists in Europe stood talking to my parents at the foot of my hospital bed. I remember my Mum—who was a relentless source of positivity, encouragement, motivation, and willpower—a poster for the healing power of love—basically rally him into agreeing that I “may” be walking by Christmas whilst I lay there, unable to move anything but my eyes.
Mum had done her research and encouraged me to visualise each step of my successful recovery every night before I fell to sleep. She encouraged me to nurture the reality I wanted and made sure I knew it was possible to achieve it.
She knew that there would at least be a chance if we were solution-focused rather than problem-focused and by repeatedly programming my conscious mind in such a way, it would be far more likely that the unconscious mind would follow.
We can’t decide what our future will look like but we can decide what our habits will look like in order to shape that future. Visualise the reality you desire because it is already available. If we believe it has already happened, it has.
There have been numerous studies done to prove the brain doesn’t know the difference between thinking about an act and actually performing the act, so providing we rehearse what we desire in a manner that is conducive with the outcome of your future self, corresponding neurological pathways are themselves being primed and our brain begins to behave as if in alignment with that reality.
The mind and body have the innate ability to heal themselves. The necessary resources are out there if we are willing to take responsibility for our healing. The only thing that gets in between us and what we desire is the noise we create removing us from the very nature of our direct experience and leading us to conclude that we aren’t already in possession of the quality we covet.
The consultant, however, didn’t share Mum’s optimism and was more so preparing my parents for having to make wheelchair adaptions to the house.
Just to put you in the picture, Mum and I were, at the time, working tirelessly on getting my head to lift further off the pillow.